I believe you. It's just not about what I think. That's what I'll have to say when I apologise for being here.
[ she isn't dismissive of Dimitri's warmth or his sincerity, because she can't doubt the truth of them when they're laid clear by the Communion—but these things are of no help to her. her own feelings don't matter at all, whether she blames herself or consumes the hatred fed to her by others. the problem isn't internal.
she's been failed many times before by well-meaning people who assumed as much. ]
I'm a burden in this place. I don't mean that in a self-pitying way, Dimitri—I am. To be honest, I couldn't care less about that. Why should I be embarrassed by that? For what, wanting to live? But... it's gotten to the point in all of this that people are looking to get rid of the dead weight, you know.
[ she pauses. ] And it's not just the Shard-Bearers. I probably don't have a place in Meridian anymore. Haah, maybe I should sell my house...
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I believe you. It's just not about what I think. That's what I'll have to say when I apologise for being here.
[ she isn't dismissive of Dimitri's warmth or his sincerity, because she can't doubt the truth of them when they're laid clear by the Communion—but these things are of no help to her. her own feelings don't matter at all, whether she blames herself or consumes the hatred fed to her by others. the problem isn't internal.
she's been failed many times before by well-meaning people who assumed as much. ]
I'm a burden in this place. I don't mean that in a self-pitying way, Dimitri—I am. To be honest, I couldn't care less about that. Why should I be embarrassed by that? For what, wanting to live? But... it's gotten to the point in all of this that people are looking to get rid of the dead weight, you know.
[ she pauses. ] And it's not just the Shard-Bearers. I probably don't have a place in Meridian anymore. Haah, maybe I should sell my house...